Swedish climber Matilda Soderlund on competition, mental health and a Hong Kong high point
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  • Swedish climber Matilda Soderlund talks about honing her competitive spirit as an infant, finding her life’s passion and getting engaged atop Kowloon Peak

My dad is a doctor and my mum is a physiotherapist and they met at a hospital in Stockholm (the capital of Sweden). They moved back to my father’s hometown of Saltsjöbaden, a seaside town just outside Stockholm, when I was born. It is a well-off area and a comfortable and protected environment to grow up in.

I was born in 1992 and my sister came along three years later. My mum and a couple of other mums got together and decided not to put their young kids in day care and instead look after them.

From the age of three, I hung out with the other kids and we went into the forest. We used to compete for everything – who could run the fastest, who would get the biggest piece of cake.

When we were six, we went to school together and brought that competitive spirit with us. It seemed normal that everything was a competition, whether it was school grades or who had the nicest clothes.

Matilda Soderlund at Eaton Hotel in Jordan, Kowloon. Soderlund started climbing rock climbing when she was 11. Photo: Yik Yeung-man

Climb to the top

Our neighbour coached the youth athletics team. He’d seen me running down the street and when I was six suggested that I join the club. I loved to move and had a lot of energy, so doing something physical was a good way to channel that energy.

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My understanding of sport was that you trained for something and then you had a competition. I loved the feeling of standing on a podium.

When I was 11, a classmate had a birthday party at the local climbing gym. Walking into the gym and seeing the massive climbing walls was both terrifying and exciting.

Something clicked when I started climbing. I didn’t need to think about it, my body was doing what felt natural. That classmate’s dad invited me to join them climbing the following week, and my father joined, too.

Hong Kong has amazing rock climbing. Everyone has been really friendly and we have met a lot of climbers here
Matilda Soderlund

After four weeks, my friend’s dad registered us for the Swedish Youth Championship. I only learned the rules when we got there, but I did well and made the finals.

Dirtbag culture

My dad and I began climbing together. Three months after I started, I entered the junior Swedish championships and took second place. I dropped all other sports to focus on climbing.

Soderlund climbing at a competition in 2005. Photo: Anders Soderlund

It became an all-consuming passion, but I struggled with my identity. Climbing at the time was a very niche sport. It was male-dominated and associated with a dirtbag culture. I didn’t fit in, so perhaps as a reaction to that very masculine environment, I began to wear more pink.

I didn’t identify as a climber for many years. But neither did I feel that I fitted in with my peers at school who were doing gymnastics, ballet and playing soccer. Growing up, I felt that I was living parallel lives.

World class

As long as I did my school work, my parents let me climb as much as I wanted. Four or five times a week my dad and I went to the climbing gym after he finished work. He was more or less coaching me, though we were learning together.

I competed nationally, then in the Nordic countries and from the age of 14 at the European youth cups. I competed all through high school. Although I was one of the best climbers in the world for my age, my classmates didn’t know about my climbing success.

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In decline

After I graduated from high school, in 2012, I took a year out to focus on climbing before going to university. I climbed in the world championship finals and the world games finals and had a lot of success.

I decided to take another year to climb full time, but as I put more pressure on myself, my motivation began to decrease. I found myself in an unhealthy toxic mental state.

Aged 19, I went to the United States alone to compete. Other climbers had support teams with coaches, physios, massage therapists and mental health support, and I felt very alone. I was in an unhappy place mentally and no longer enjoyed competitions or even climbing.

Light-bulb moment

I wanted to take a step back, so, in August 2013, I started at the Stockholm School of Economics. I finally popped the climbing bubble and got to meet new people. It was the best thing that could have happened, and I embraced university life.

Soderlund at Eaton Hotel in Jordan. Photo: Yik Yeung-man
I only climbed when I felt like it, usually a couple of times a week. I did two six-month internships at the end of my studies, one at an investment bank and the other in private equity. I didn’t enjoy it at all. Finance is known for long working hours and I was working from 8am to 3am. The values weren’t aligned with mine.

At this time, my dad got very sick and was diagnosed with cancer. It really affected me, and I started questioning my priorities.

I had an epiphany in a taxi on the way back from work at 3am. I realised climbing was a gift I’d been given, and I could do something with that and try to make a difference and inspire people or do something completely normal in an office.

I decided I wanted to build my life and career around climbing.

I love the feeling of being on the wall, it’s unbeatable, nothing else gives me that. I’m so focused and in the present, thinking about the next move.
Matilda Soderlund

Going outdoors

The next day I reached out to the coach I’d worked with before I went to university and he offered to start coaching me again. My initial vision for what I wanted was to start a climbing gym, which would allow me to combine what I’d learned at university with my passion for climbing.

I started looking into that in 2018. I shifted from competitions to only climbing outside. I was able to climb full time and was in better shape than I’d ever been. It felt like a new chapter, I was starting again on my own terms.

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Having taken a step back, I was clearer about my relationship with climbing. I love the feeling of being on the wall, it’s unbeatable, nothing else gives me that.

I’m so focused and in the present, thinking about the next move, regardless of whether it’s an indoor wall or several hundred metres up a wall in Spain. Climbing outside I get to see such amazing places and meet people from different cultures. Often I’m climbing with friends.

Where there’s a William there’s a way

From 2015, social media became a much bigger thing. It opened up a lot of opportunities for sponsorship from clothing brands, equipment makers, energy drinks and cars. Studying business and economics helped me navigate that landscape.
Soderlund and her partner William Hamilton just after he proposed at the top of Kowloon Peak in December, 2023. Photo: William Hamilton
I met my partner, William Hamilton, in 2020, through a mutual friend who is a climber turned professional DJ. William is a DJ. He studied psychology and then started a virtual-reality company with his brother to support people with mental-health problems. They have an office in Manila.

We became a couple in 2021. It took a few years to get the funding for the climbing gym and find a location. Moumo – which comes from “mountain movements” – opened at the end of 2022.

William is an investor in the gym, and we travel the world together. He is my photographer and manager, so we work together as well. The goal is to expand our climbing-gym business.

Try and try again

I try to push my climbing in terms of what is possible. Since the spring of 2021, I’d been working on a difficult climb in northern Sweden but kept falling on the same move towards the end. I trained hard and went back last September for three weeks to try to finish it.

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It is all in the detail. When you have tried it so many times you know every single foot and hand placement by heart.

When I went to bed, I would think about all the moves. Once the weather cleared up and it was dry enough to climb, I had a great day and felt super good, but then I miscalculated and took a massive fall and hit my head and shoulder against the wall. I went back the next day and finished it.

That experience was filmed for a documentary, Niemesis 9a, which is being screened in Hong Kong.

Climbing Hong Kong

I came to Hong Kong with William in December for five days. We did a memorable climb at Central Crag, which overlooks the city. We went to the Philippines but loved Hong Kong so much we decided to come back earlier and spend more time here before flying to Stockholm.
Soderlund climbing in Hong Kong. Photo: William Hamilton
We did a big sunset hike to the top of Kowloon Peak and William proposed. It was very romantic – and I said yes.
Hong Kong has amazing rock climbing. Everyone has been really friendly and we have met a lot of climbers here, many of whom got into climbing during the pandemic. A lot of climbing gyms have also opened in the city in the past few years.

We have also climbed at Beacon Hill and Hero Crag, and visited four climbing gyms. We will definitely come back to Hong Kong.

My dad is doing much better. He often comes to our gym and climbs there. I’m grateful for the opportunity to do the things I love in life.

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